The worst time in my live that made me realise how much love is overreacted and people are asking for something they don't understand. I fall in love with Sizwe, I've been looking for love for so long, that one person that takes all the pain away and makes you feel worth it. So i thought i had found it, but thats not how it is, love was that fear of yourself, of being alone and finding who you are, so you rely on someone else to do that which makes you lose yourself and who you are. I've seen my friends who have been "in love" and they've been through too much pain, heartache, crying yourself to sleep and we all thought its part of being in love. But i realised it's NOT, we shouldn't put up with being second best, with all the pain and tears and feeling so low you don't want to breathe. I'm not going to lie, i loved the happy parts and the excitement and that feeling that everything is going to be okey, that feeling of being loved. But i lost myself, all my morals and how i view the world, what i believe and what's true or a lie. Love is truly blind. But i wouldn't want to feel like that again. Sizwe hurt me to my soul, he took such a big part of me and didn't even care. I know how special i am now and i'll never let anyone take that away from me. But what hurts the most, that i still love him and care so much and just wish that he loved me the way i love him.
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