Its been hectic. i feel like every year i "find" a new side to me
Its April and already a lot has happened, 1stly with school, i had my mogo now its gone, now i need to force myself to pick up a book, which i hate!!!
And friends, all good but Amanda and i are having problems that i dont even know what they are.
its awkward for no good reason, so i asked to take a break and i think i made it worse.
Guys...Guys...guys. man are they annoying, 1stly had this problem of guys in relationships asking me out, like WTF. im not easy or desprate!!
Than Sanele ofcos the guy i have no idea how i feel bout. But i think its not lust, love or even like, its just attention and he's really insightful which just amazes me. but all in all, i feel nothing.
Now Nhlakanipho the guy ive been wanting and wanting since 2008 FINIALLY asked me out!!
Like yoh, we've flirted, gotten "over" eachother, just friends, brother and sister love, everything but i love him. he's it. i know a couple of months ago i thought i could live without Sizwe, but Nhlaka is different he's the ONE. he's been there, he's smart, funny, church guy and loves with such a true open heart and i've wanted him sense forever!
he makes me happy! like really happy. i just wish i wont ruin it. i hope he wont get over me or i'll become too much. its long distance so i know its going to be HARD!!! but cheating is NOT an option, i love him too much. i really hope it works out. PRAYING
oh church is going great, i've really grown up and feel so sprital and uplefted by God, i know him now and i respect him, more than anything.
